Finding me

Every now and then people come to a point in their life where they need to decide whether to give up on life, or stand up and make themselves somebody. I have been avoiding this moment. Trying to sit up without laying down. Not putting forth the effort necessary to be somebody, bottom feeding on what i could without being a bum. I absolutely hate handouts and taking help from people when i know i don't need it. I prefer to be independent, but i would love to just sit back and collect (as anyone would). Lately i have been standing up, getting my foot out the door. I have been feeling better about myself. The need to lie has been becoming less and less of a problem. My new year resolution was to get into shape, i think ill change to getting my life in shape. My life is more of a fat nasty slob that i am. Someone once told me that to be somebody you need to know who you truly are. So let this be the start of a quest to find out who i am.